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fuckinglivejournal is down when IM FUCKING READING
fuckibng fingers that cant type fuck depresion fUCING SCHOOLSHIT


fuck



damn you fucking post this OR ESLE FUCKING FUCK


FUCKING STOP WHEN I PRESS FUCKING 'STOP' FUCKING SHIT!

I used a fucking "." at then end.. that's how you can tell where the end is

I feel so fucking empty, because I can't help and I FUCKING HATE my own ineptitude and thewordIcan'tremeberwhatisrightnow
there you have it.. words
fucking words I cant use them I HATE THEM I FUCKING HATE THEM


I hate words, because they aren't there, when I FUCKING need them and it enrages me so, because all that come out of these UGLY SKIN-BITTEN FINGERS is shit, platitude, empty synonymes and simple bloated hollow words that has so much FEELING behind them, so much anotherwordIcannotremember BUT it soundls only so forced and unsincere
it's like I'm a FUCKING DYSLECTIC I dunno


science? you want *me* to take fucking biology-science-chemistry-elecctricity-wtf is it called (thanks mom's brain)
over the net??!! are you fucking DUMB?

I cannot handle all this shit I am fucking helpless I AM FUCKING HELPLESS

OK? understand?! I've had everything done *for* me my ENTIRE life, I don't KNOW how to fucking do anything execpt WHINE that I can't fucking do anything

and cuss,, FUCKING TYPING MISSTYPING FUCKETYFUCK

do you know how many times I typed 'fycket' there? HUH? FUCK



I fucking am NOT happy, I finnaly accomplish SOMETHING

and ..

people I care about react, they ask because I compell them aggressivly
and I do, and screen their comments so MORE PEOPLE WIL FUCKING ASK
and not get their answer by just clicking '3 comments to this post' and have my reply to someones OTHERS asking erh I mean QUESTION


and I FUCKING will not bee seenig that fucking Harry Potter movie before it is OLD NEWS and NOBODY wants to hear my talk about it
because IT WILL BE FUCKING OLD NEWS BY THEN

and people at MUSICBRAINZ are all twats I hate that place so much now
because they are all arrogant asses cought up in their own little paradigm and I'm just full of myself again


I steal del's way of writing this post, and I use her words like 'CUNTS' and 'twats' because I do not HAVE MY OWN FUCKING WORDS


I take ami's silly words and write 'thingers' and from solti I have stolen 'luff'



SHITFACED ME OF THE TOP OF THE WORLD COME SOMEBODY SHOOT ME DOWN AND GIVE ME A *REAL* ISSUE TO COMPLAIN ABOUT



I am seriusly more deeper and darker and intelligenter than I come off, I have a whole world, nay 2, two thousand worlds inside myself, waiting to come out of these useless rotten fucking fingers.. my fucking brain which is useless enough because it works either to fast for my fingers or to cramped up for the world.

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I made sushi- rice today. yes. I am going to make sushi balls

fucking I don't care about drama anymore I'm not mister niceguy. from now on I will f. say what is on my mind. and no more swearing. it's f. unhealty

mother had bought jum meat and we had with potato salad

was sligthly putten of, because I was going o make lunken sushi balls, but it was so delisjious anyway, so jum.. is it 'yum' or 'jum' ?

Tancaliel. fucking respond to me. ok?


there, I've said it. out in the open, not the dignifyed thing to do, I suppose. mother would turn in a grave if she had one
but, that's what been eating me, yes THAT, that's what all these WHY DO YOU IGNORE ME posts since december where essencially about, I KNOW you use this chat room I don't use. I SUPPOSE I could have quietly emailed you.. but I was afraid.. of more silence.. of more igmnoration.. and the worst part is that.. i'm pretty sure its just in my head. that you ARENT doing anything ON PURPOSE to make me feel this way and that I AM overreacting
( ok fuck i'll use an lj cut )

wtf I really didn't mean for that to rhyme.. XD

also, one final note before I and make susi balls to eat AND GET FAT by eating more than once a day

also, one final note before I and make susi balls to eat AND GET FAT by eating more than once a day and lie in bed and play Zelda untill I fall asleep:

Nasasie: tell me not to be a fucking stupid bitch
kissenliebe signed off at 02:25:30.


.. I guess that pretty much sums it all up then >_