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nasasieI feel so fucking empty, because I can't help and I FUCKING HATE my own ineptitude and thewordIcan'tremeberwhatisrightnow
there you have it.. words
fucking words I cant use them I HATE THEM I FUCKING HATE THEM
I hate words, because they aren't there, when I FUCKING need them and it enrages me so, because all that come out of these UGLY SKIN-BITTEN FINGERS is shit, platitude, empty synonymes and simple bloated hollow words that has so much FEELING behind them, so much anotherwordIcannotremember BUT it soundls only so forced and unsincere
it's like I'm a FUCKING DYSLECTIC I dunno
science? you want *me* to take fucking biology-science-chemistry-elecctricity-wtf is it called (thanks mom's brain)
over the net??!! are you fucking DUMB?
I cannot handle all this shit I am fucking helpless I AM FUCKING HELPLESS
OK? understand?! I've had everything done *for* me my ENTIRE life, I don't KNOW how to fucking do anything execpt WHINE that I can't fucking do anything
and cuss,, FUCKING TYPING MISSTYPING FUCKETYFUCK
do you know how many times I typed 'fycket' there? HUH? FUCK
I fucking am NOT happy, I finnaly accomplish SOMETHING
and ..
people I care about react, they ask because I compell them aggressivly
and I do, and screen their comments so MORE PEOPLE WIL FUCKING ASK
and not get their answer by just clicking '3 comments to this post' and have my reply to someones OTHERSasking erh I mean QUESTION
and I FUCKING will not bee seenig that fucking Harry Potter movie before it is OLD NEWS and NOBODY wants to hear my talk about it
because IT WILL BE FUCKING OLD NEWS BY THEN
and people at MUSICBRAINZ are all twats I hate that place so much now
because they are all arrogant asses cought up in their own little paradigm and I'm just full of myself again
I steal del's way of writing this post, and I use her words like 'CUNTS' and 'twats' because I do not HAVE MY OWN FUCKING WORDS
I take ami's silly words and write 'thingers' and from solti I have stolen 'luff'
SHITFACED ME OF THE TOP OF THE WORLD COME SOMEBODY SHOOT ME DOWN AND GIVE ME A *REAL* ISSUE TO COMPLAIN ABOUT
I am seriusly more deeper and darker and intelligenter than I come off, I have a whole world, nay 2, two thousand worlds inside myself, waiting to come out of these useless rotten fucking fingers.. my fucking brain which is useless enough because it works either to fast for my fingers or to cramped up for the world.
there you have it.. words
fucking words I cant use them I HATE THEM I FUCKING HATE THEM
I hate words, because they aren't there, when I FUCKING need them and it enrages me so, because all that come out of these UGLY SKIN-BITTEN FINGERS is shit, platitude, empty synonymes and simple bloated hollow words that has so much FEELING behind them, so much anotherwordIcannotremember BUT it soundls only so forced and unsincere
it's like I'm a FUCKING DYSLECTIC I dunno
science? you want *me* to take fucking biology-science-chemistry-elecctricity-wtf is it called (thanks mom's brain)
over the net??!! are you fucking DUMB?
I cannot handle all this shit I am fucking helpless I AM FUCKING HELPLESS
OK? understand?! I've had everything done *for* me my ENTIRE life, I don't KNOW how to fucking do anything execpt WHINE that I can't fucking do anything
and cuss,, FUCKING TYPING MISSTYPING FUCKETYFUCK
do you know how many times I typed 'fycket' there? HUH? FUCK
I fucking am NOT happy, I finnaly accomplish SOMETHING
and ..
people I care about react, they ask because I compell them aggressivly
and I do, and screen their comments so MORE PEOPLE WIL FUCKING ASK
and not get their answer by just clicking '3 comments to this post' and have my reply to someones OTHERS
and I FUCKING will not bee seenig that fucking Harry Potter movie before it is OLD NEWS and NOBODY wants to hear my talk about it
because IT WILL BE FUCKING OLD NEWS BY THEN
and people at MUSICBRAINZ are all twats I hate that place so much now
because they are all arrogant asses cought up in their own little paradigm and I'm just full of myself again
I steal del's way of writing this post, and I use her words like 'CUNTS' and 'twats' because I do not HAVE MY OWN FUCKING WORDS
I take ami's silly words and write 'thingers' and from solti I have stolen 'luff'
SHITFACED ME OF THE TOP OF THE WORLD COME SOMEBODY SHOOT ME DOWN AND GIVE ME A *REAL* ISSUE TO COMPLAIN ABOUT
I am seriusly more deeper and darker and intelligenter than I come off, I have a whole world, nay 2, two thousand worlds inside myself, waiting to come out of these useless rotten fucking fingers.. my fucking brain which is useless enough because it works either to fast for my fingers or to cramped up for the world.
