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this was, and still is, true.
I know that none of you will ever understand, and most you don't bother, it's is ok, I am not angry at you, and I honestly don't want to fight, ok maybe, maybe I wanted to start a little argument, maybe I am upset at a lot of shit that happens to me that I can't control so I try to go into the eBar and start an eFight with the eRegulars like a regular eJackoff
the only problems is that I forgot two golden rules.
a) I am no longer a regular
b) I am not like everybody else
the rules don't apply to me, they are always, much, much stricter, other people can come off with much larger doses of crap-on-a-stick and be forgiven, ignored or even hell, have others stick up for them because of camaraderie, even when they are full of crap.
that will never happen to me, I am no-ones comrade or "pal" at best I am an estranged friend or acquaintance. it's ok, OK! I do not harbour any hard feelings or ill will to anyone, but honestly if you don't care, why should I?
before anyone starts getting scared or some bullshit this is not a fucking suicide note, just simply a "goodbye"
my misspellings are hilarious, they truly are, I mean it is clearly my own fault for having a holey education for reasons that are my childhood and issues, my problems and limitations, and now a desperate battle to rectify this in my solitude, in my ineptitude. and making fun of me when I am clearly upset is very mature, it is I who should be an adult and not have an emotional outbreak. because I should take all the shit and not try to interpret anything or think I am anyone's friend. I am not anyone's friend. I don't have a friend. A *real* friend, I never, really have, and that's ok
but please. stop ridiculing me because you feel a little bit guilty for it. thank you.
I'm sorry, I know this is hilarious to you and I know I'm pathetic, but please don't make a bigger deal of this than it is. thank you.
this was, and still is, true.
I know that none of you will ever understand, and most you don't bother, it's is ok, I am not angry at you, and I honestly don't want to fight, ok maybe, maybe I wanted to start a little argument, maybe I am upset at a lot of shit that happens to me that I can't control so I try to go into the eBar and start an eFight with the eRegulars like a regular eJackoff
the only problems is that I forgot two golden rules.
a) I am no longer a regular
b) I am not like everybody else
the rules don't apply to me, they are always, much, much stricter, other people can come off with much larger doses of crap-on-a-stick and be forgiven, ignored or even hell, have others stick up for them because of camaraderie, even when they are full of crap.
that will never happen to me, I am no-ones comrade or "pal" at best I am an estranged friend or acquaintance. it's ok, OK! I do not harbour any hard feelings or ill will to anyone, but honestly if you don't care, why should I?
before anyone starts getting scared or some bullshit this is not a fucking suicide note, just simply a "goodbye"
my misspellings are hilarious, they truly are, I mean it is clearly my own fault for having a holey education for reasons that are my childhood and issues, my problems and limitations, and now a desperate battle to rectify this in my solitude, in my ineptitude. and making fun of me when I am clearly upset is very mature, it is I who should be an adult and not have an emotional outbreak. because I should take all the shit and not try to interpret anything or think I am anyone's friend. I am not anyone's friend. I don't have a friend. A *real* friend, I never, really have, and that's ok
but please. stop ridiculing me because you feel a little bit guilty for it. thank you.
I'm sorry, I know this is hilarious to you and I know I'm pathetic, but please don't make a bigger deal of this than it is. thank you.
