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Jun. 30th, 2004 02:21 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
nasasieI made sushi- rice today. yes. I am going to make sushi balls
fucking I don't care about drama anymore I'm not mister niceguy. from now on I will f. say what is on my mind. and no more swearing. it's f. unhealty
mother had bought jum meat and we had with potato salad
was sligthly putten of, because I was going o make lunken sushi balls, but it was so delisjious anyway, so jum.. is it 'yum' or 'jum' ?
Tancaliel. fucking respond to me. ok?
there, I've said it. out in the open, not the dignifyed thing to do, I suppose. mother would turn in a grave if she had one
but, that's what been eating me, yes THAT, that's what all these WHY DO YOU IGNORE ME posts since december where essencially about, I KNOW you use this chat room I don't use. I SUPPOSE I could have quietly emailed you.. but I was afraid.. of more silence.. of more igmnoration.. and the worst part is that.. i'm pretty sure its just in my head. that you ARENT doing anything ON PURPOSE to make me feel this way and that I AM overreacting
but this isn't fucking funny, I do NOT have any decesaes or computer viruses lodged on my body, if you really did care you could respond, like RESPOND RESPOND
I am REALY high matenance, I require asurance EVERY FRIGGING MINUTE that I exsist from you pont of view, telling me 'you don't want to talk' is BETTER than ignoring me
here's a friendly tip of advice to all of you, reading this (I asume your reading this, because you say you do, even if you don't comment)
TELLING ME TO FUCKING GO FUCK MYSELF AND LEAVE YOU ALONE
is BETTER than ingoring me, ok? the worst f. thing you can do is ignoreing me, becuse I'll be a twat and asume I did something wrong, to put you off me indefinatly, I irritated you enough, I exsausted you enough, or that something bad has happened to you
I have tons of stuff I want to share with you, but I am scared and loney and sosically inpet.
I'll assume alot of things unless I GET A CLEAR MESSAGE
I SIPEN OF OTHER PEOPLES ATTENTION, give some to me and watch me bloom like a flower in cowshit.
give me none, and watch me shrivel up to a bitter, twisted psycotic paranoid selfobsorbed basket-case
who's only thought is 'wtf did I do wrong NOW? ::cry::'
still being quite aware that THIS IS ONLY IN MY STUPID EGOSENTRIC BRAIN
while (from MY point of view) it DOES seem to revolve around me, it doesn't.
the world I mean.
wtf I really didn't mean for that to rhyme.. XD
fucking I don't care about drama anymore I'm not mister niceguy. from now on I will f. say what is on my mind. and no more swearing. it's f. unhealty
mother had bought jum meat and we had with potato salad
was sligthly putten of, because I was going o make lunken sushi balls, but it was so delisjious anyway, so jum.. is it 'yum' or 'jum' ?
Tancaliel. fucking respond to me. ok?
there, I've said it. out in the open, not the dignifyed thing to do, I suppose. mother would turn in a grave if she had one
but, that's what been eating me, yes THAT, that's what all these WHY DO YOU IGNORE ME posts since december where essencially about, I KNOW you use this chat room I don't use. I SUPPOSE I could have quietly emailed you.. but I was afraid.. of more silence.. of more igmnoration.. and the worst part is that.. i'm pretty sure its just in my head. that you ARENT doing anything ON PURPOSE to make me feel this way and that I AM overreacting
but this isn't fucking funny, I do NOT have any decesaes or computer viruses lodged on my body, if you really did care you could respond, like RESPOND RESPOND
I am REALY high matenance, I require asurance EVERY FRIGGING MINUTE that I exsist from you pont of view, telling me 'you don't want to talk' is BETTER than ignoring me
here's a friendly tip of advice to all of you, reading this (I asume your reading this, because you say you do, even if you don't comment)
TELLING ME TO FUCKING GO FUCK MYSELF AND LEAVE YOU ALONE
is BETTER than ingoring me, ok? the worst f. thing you can do is ignoreing me, becuse I'll be a twat and asume I did something wrong, to put you off me indefinatly, I irritated you enough, I exsausted you enough, or that something bad has happened to you
I have tons of stuff I want to share with you, but I am scared and loney and sosically inpet.
I'll assume alot of things unless I GET A CLEAR MESSAGE
I SIPEN OF OTHER PEOPLES ATTENTION, give some to me and watch me bloom like a flower in cowshit.
give me none, and watch me shrivel up to a bitter, twisted psycotic paranoid selfobsorbed basket-case
who's only thought is 'wtf did I do wrong NOW? ::cry::'
still being quite aware that THIS IS ONLY IN MY STUPID EGOSENTRIC BRAIN
while (from MY point of view) it DOES seem to revolve around me, it doesn't.
the world I mean.
wtf I really didn't mean for that to rhyme.. XD
