nasasie | :sneeze:

I have a dilemma... a dilemma I'm going to loose

I am couching rather bad and freezing, all I want to do is stay at home, in bed, and nurse myself back to an atleast useful state
if I go out now, chances are that the cold will make me sicker, and I really cant afford that because I haven't done my exam* yet
and I *want* to well enough for that. its bad enough that I missed it the first time, its bad enough that my teacher got sick (she's doing better btw =)
and its bad enough that I remember mostly squat of what I was taught by benevolent teachers whom now probably don't even remember I existed.

erh where was I..
oh yea. the problem with all this 'it's a good idea to stay at home'-ness is
is that my mother is sicker than I.

and she needs to go to the hospital AGAIN (damness, can't those people actually get that fistula inn right EVER?)
and we also need to go shoppin' and she now has TWO unusable arms and I *definitely* have to carry for her, and I probably should get going as we speak instead of lounging around on the floor* in front of my computer writing up this.
also if I am not with her she will probably attempt to carry things anyway because my mother is sometimes *really really really stoopid* in ways like that. its not like she thinks she's invincible indestructible, its that it seems she doesn't seem to understand that you don't have to wait until *it hurts like bleedin' pitpbulls are tearing of your arms* before you -=stop=-

so you see my problem?

oh and having the state in-ordain a *babysitter* wouldn't help much in a case like this. no matter what they say
in no way is it that any such person could help here, except if said person would crossover job descriptions (asisif they would)
and help my mother do what she needed to do so I could stay home to *un*chill

didn't think of such a situation did they?!
that maybe *I* m not the one who needs help all the time?!
that maybe *OTHER* people in this Household are sometimes stupid and I have to looks out for them?!

eh?! eh?! EH?!

ehe. enayway. I sould really get dressed.

* I say exam, but I mean 'test'
the reason I say 'exam' is that that equisits more of an reaction out of most people than 'test' has ever done.

* I did write 'is' twice, intentionally. get over it people

* I have adjusted my computer's desk so low I can sit on the floor infront of it.