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Dec. 24th, 2003 07:06 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
nasasieI figured it out you know
whats wrong with me
its not *my* heads at all, not really the doctors are all wrong
theres two thgings, seriously bulshiting with me
first, on the inside theres this thing, i wouldnt call it a boy, its a thing, but it looks like a boy, because I hate boys and its an evil thing,
a boy with sandy-brown yellow hair (BECAUSE IT IS YOU BASTARD ITS NOT BROWN, DONT YOU THINK I KNOW THIS BETTER THAN YOU? IT WORKS INSIDE OUR BRAIN BUT NOT OUTSIDE IT, MORON)
that thing goe agains any pregoncisioned notion, when I say, 'ignore the fact theres no wqter and yoy can was and you cant get clean and you CAN but on te bathrobe when you are, dirty
it says 'NO!! nonono!!! you cannot! I willnot, be a bitch, no, be a basstdard, and while your at it, forget about acting logical I will eat that away
it dosnt operate in 'I's or anykind of pronoun than 'me'
it malkes up rules to stay it happy, like 'if you do this and this so, then there will be no dissaster
but this and this must be followed
you cant download that from there you need to get her to do it for you, I wont let you operate your mind, and use it respoinsibly whahaha
you get the point.. well besides the 'whahahah' it really doesnt do that...
seconed, there are these evil spirited omnipotent evil creatures
mononokes
thatr are completely and absolutely have me in their power, well not *me* persay, but my suraoundings, if something is to good onb one side, the evl karma makes sure something *bad* happens..
this happenes everytime
and I plead with them, I beg of them, I bargan with them I trheaten them....
no use, they never listen, to me, or have my sympathy
the worst part is, it affects other people to ;__;
its been liek this since i can reember a little child
this is not something im making up thes is the reality ™
its been a while since they last took me over like this and made me shudder in hate and fear and resentfulness and paranoid schitzoprhenia
and let me walk on the rim of inner caos like that
I just mersilisly cry out 'help me' 'help me' 'help me' ...p me
and noone listens, the evil litte 'boy' inside my head keeps chanting, 'their pretty words are fine things, exept when I really need it' 'then nonone listens at all to you.. do they?'
but its not liek that, I know it isn't o_____o
right guys? yes, its not liek that not like that
they are gonna get me for calling them 'evil'
and wtf no I havent taken my pill yet wtf is wrong with you? anybody sayinf something like that is gonna get thir arshe kicken around
ok? stfu
whats wrong with me
its not *my* heads at all, not really the doctors are all wrong
theres two thgings, seriously bulshiting with me
first, on the inside theres this thing, i wouldnt call it a boy, its a thing, but it looks like a boy, because I hate boys and its an evil thing,
a boy with sandy
that thing goe agains any pregoncisioned notion, when I say, 'ignore the fact theres no wqter and yoy can was and you cant get clean and you CAN but on te bathrobe when you are, dirty
it says 'NO!! nonono!!! you cannot! I willnot, be a bitch, no, be a basstdard, and while your at it, forget about acting logical I will eat that away
it dosnt operate in 'I's or anykind of pronoun than 'me'
it malkes up rules to stay it happy, like 'if you do this and this so, then there will be no dissaster
but this and this must be followed
you cant download that from there you need to get her to do it for you, I wont let you operate your mind, and use it respoinsibly whahaha
you get the point.. well besides the 'whahahah' it really doesnt do that...
seconed, there are these evil spirited omnipotent evil creatures
mononokes
thatr are completely and absolutely have me in their power, well not *me* persay, but my suraoundings, if something is to good onb one side, the evl karma makes sure something *bad* happens..
this happenes everytime
and I plead with them, I beg of them, I bargan with them I trheaten them....
no use, they never listen, to me, or have my sympathy
the worst part is, it affects other people to ;__;
its been liek this since i can reember a little child
this is not something im making up thes is the reality ™
its been a while since they last took me over like this and made me shudder in hate and fear and resentfulness and paranoid schitzoprhenia
and let me walk on the rim of inner caos like that
I just mersilisly cry out 'help me' 'help me' 'help me' ...p me
and noone listens, the evil litte 'boy' inside my head keeps chanting, 'their pretty words are fine things, exept when I really need it' 'then nonone listens at all to you.. do they?'
but its not liek that, I know it isn't o_____o
right guys? yes, its not liek that not like that
they are gonna get me for calling them 'evil'
and wtf no I havent taken my pill yet wtf is wrong with you? anybody sayinf something like that is gonna get thir arshe kicken around
ok? stfu
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Date: 2003-12-24 01:43 am (UTC)and I dont think you're crazy :kissy: I think you're sweet little Nas who drew herself so prettily in her own comic.
comic?
Date: 2003-12-24 03:06 am (UTC)am gonna help mother with loads of things and then there is christmas and it WILL be well
it feels troublsomlingly good just to have it *out* you know
sorry for ranting and raving in half my wits end and at my half mind
I really ament all that wonkificated XD
:cuddle:
thanks for nice words, they cheered me up so
its always better after a nap :nods:
really though, I could handle the voices if all they did was "talk"
but they insist on being me and controlling my brain :p
aannyway~
Thank you <3
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Date: 2003-12-24 03:45 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-01-30 04:04 pm (UTC)