guilt trip

I feel so very very bad, the sheer guilt, of knowing it's been months since I read your live journal, weeks since i got your comment replies
and it all sits and sits and builds up to amass this great big Lump Of Things I Should Have Done™
I haven't looked at certain webcomics for weeks
I haven't played games for weeks (except for sapphire)
no drawing, no deviantarting, no randomnonsencing, no giping, no nothing
I'm just so tired, because I KNOW, next month it'll all be the same thing

and for what?
all it does is give me grief, and I can talk to solti and amikatt on AIM.. so why do I bother?
I'm just so sick of RN and everything
I have a story, with characters, its a good story, and its really pretty, but its nothing like RN has turned out to be
it really depresses me, because I don't have the talent to draw it how it should be

it flows, is alive with motion picture colours
It works in my brain

and nowhere else

bummer

I am so not Sane

You have just entered room "OscarTheBishBoyRules."
Dark Passageways has entered the room.
that I see has entered the room.
WereTheDemonsAre has entered the room.
of Revenge IsAll has entered the room.
AloneInTheDark54 has entered the room.
TorturingMe has entered the room.
TorturingMe: hey
TorturingMe: why the fuck are we there
WereTheDemonsAre: dont ask me man
Dark Passageways: well itskinda cool
AloneInTheDark54: yea
WereTheDemonsAre: so, henche, hoe you doin?
TorturingMe: don't ask him idiot! his sitting right next to you ! ask ME instead!
Dark Passageways: you'ra funny goat
of Revenge IsAll: dont call her that, man, she'll kill ya
that I see: she will?
TorturingMe: damn straight!
Nasasie: heee
Nasasie: lookit
TorturingMe: lookit waht moron face?
Nasasie: yar names
WereTheDemonsAre: names? waht about the names?
Dark Passageways: HEY YO
Dark Passageways: I SEES
that I see: hmm
that I see: yaa!
that I see: I see it to
TorturingMe: see wahat?
WereTheDemonsAre: AloneInTheDark54WereTheDemo nsAre:TorturingMe:Dark Passageways:of Revenge IsAll: that I see:
WereTheDemonsAre: read it fools!
TorturingMe: this is not another 'bow before me mortals thing again? isit
WereTheDemonsAre: no
AloneInTheDark54: OOH! I get it!
AloneInTheDark54: oh.. oop
AloneInTheDark54: s
AloneInTheDark54 has left the room.
WereTheDemonsAre: ?
WereTheDemonsAre has left the room.
TorturingMe: I AM NOT BLODDY LEAVING
Dark Passageways: hell no
Dark Passageways has left the room.
that I see: I guess he changed his mind eh?
of Revenge IsAll: well you screwed up the order
that I see: did not
of Revenge IsAll: ddi to
that I see has left the room.
of Revenge IsAll has left the room.
Nasasie: I guess im alone with you then
TorturingMe: guess again
TorturingMe has left the room.
Nasasie: >__<
Nasasie: wha.. not even my own creations want to hang around me