guilt trip

[nasasie]

I feel so very very bad, the sheer guilt, of knowing it's been months since I read your live journal, weeks since i got your comment replies
and it all sits and sits and builds up to amass this great big Lump Of Things I Should Have Done™
I haven't looked at certain webcomics for weeks
I haven't played games for weeks (except for sapphire)
no drawing, no deviantarting, no randomnonsencing, no giping, no nothing
I'm just so tired, because I KNOW, next month it'll all be the same thing

and for what?
all it does is give me grief, and I can talk to solti and amikatt on AIM.. so why do I bother?
I'm just so sick of RN and everything
I have a story, with characters, its a good story, and its really pretty, but its nothing like RN has turned out to be
it really depresses me, because I don't have the talent to draw it how it should be

it flows, is alive with motion picture colours
It works in my brain

and nowhere else

bummer