nasasie | Aug. 12th, 2003

no. I'm not dead.
and no, it hasn't been a dead week either. actually, it's probably been the most eventful week of my life.
on Tuesday we went to Ingjerdstrand to bade, it was ubernifty and I got a nice tan.
had to walk alot before we got to a good place, not to mention all the hassle driving there in the first place, what with the fact that Ingjerdstrand wasn't even inside the Oslo limits (since the TT-card is only legal inside the borders of oslo ë_ë)
any-watch, after drifting about a little, we settle on a nice little dock made out of wood where some children where fishing for crab (why do children always do that? ^__^) where we stayed the entire day
I brought my newly acquired-for-that-purpose butterfly-net with me, captured crabs with it (well, not so much captured, as having dead shell inside, and the crab stuck on it while trying to eat trough the masks of the net) and even fish (tiny tiny ones)

stayed the entire day, got a narly tan, bathed loads, and some good play time on my Pokémon Sapphire GameBoy Advance SP {{all your plugs are belong to}}...
the Norwegian (and utmostly fitting) word for this day is 'herlig'

and I think it was at home that day that mom said, "since I now have a bathing suit (that fits me) We will go bathing, not every (and this is when I think she's gonna say "every week") day, but eachanother day" (8---o) so then we on Thursday go to Frognerbadet, which is not a beach, but an outdoor pool..
witch would have been cool..
if it weren't for that the one pool (the kiddie one) it was warm enough, but way to shallow
the other one.. (the adult/competitive one) was way to deep! and to cold }}{{
and you couldn't stand anywhere, (which for me is a *must* actually)

to top it of, the water-slide (YAY!!1) was EXTREMELY (all caps) expensive (since it wasn't run by the commune, but privately owned blabla blabedy-bla) but this day, after playing (!) with mom in the water we where sitting on the tribune-like stonesteps infront of the big pool, watching the people on/in the divers-pool being bitched at by the coach, someone.. approached us
I recognised him before he told us who he was..
it was my old childhood harasser, I had (and still have) so many issues, bones to pick with him..
he said hi, and did I recognise him?.. I said no, I didn't really.
and he went away again...

after all these years...

but there was something.. something in his eyes.. they were different.. weren't they?

after sitting there, and talking (to mom) we decided to back to the place on the lawn where we ate before, to eat again..
and, lo and behold! there he is, siting with a girl (his sister) I lost sight of him has he was walking away but
but there he was, I considered making up an excuse to keep on walking past, but then I thought.
"here is your chance Carita, this was meant to be, talk to him, do it"
and I did
and...
oh.. its like.. @_@ I dunno.. so lovely
we talked.. he admitted to being (his words) 'a brat' (drittunge)
tried to make a little excuses, but only a fainthearted attempt 'about he remembering that we had mostly fun, also'
its like.. I have hated him, hated and feared him, so much
and here I am, and I find out that.. his fate was (and is ^_^) similar to mine
inn and out of schools, trouble, more trouble
and he is only now finishing his high school education (just like me)
he is going to be a biologist, work with animals, I'm going to be a palaeontologist, so I might meet him at some zoology course (since I would have to take those to)
we share similar music taste even! (well, similar to my mothers, but hey)
he was going to.. get this:
'go to the Testament concert but something came up'

ha?!
::throws hands out amazedingly::
I was supposed to talk to him that day.. it has moved stuff around in my distant past.. cut up old wounds.. but in a good, 'blood leaching leeches that don't hurt, refreshing sorta way'

yea, that *did* sound weird..

walked to our spot with the palls in the grass where we ate and talked some more
it was so.. it struck me then.. I was supposed to talk to kim that time this day.. it was meant to be, to end it all, my new good school, my friendships, everything. this was the key, to open and close that.. past..
I feel..

closure, to the point of tears. tears of joy

I'm not mad or hateful at him anymore.. I am.. relived
because, besides my hate and fear, even then as a little girl
I knew he was in pain, and in anguish, he had problems, same as me.. no, bigger than mine, I told myself this, it was the only way I could.. ok.. I think I'm gonna talk about this at another time maybe.. please. ask me about it if your interested. (that's assuming you've read this far though, lol)
anyway, I saw it, I saw it in his eyes, he's changed, he's 'grown up' as he said
he isn't that hurtful, hated and hateful little boy, son of a.. beehive anymore

it was everything, even his voice, it was pleasant, that's the first thing I noticed about him really, I used to HATE Kim's voice.. that little... his trademark was giving the finger (witch is why I don't really find it endearing when people for example Naruto do that)

think Bart Simpson, with Macaulay Culkin's attitude in 'The Godchild' (looksed a bit like him to

but this was all away now, he kinda reminded me of Jan, a nice teacher I had once.. :D

ah..

okay..
moving on..

so, my friend Elvie had talked to me about bathing with her, there where some problems about where and when and no and yes and stuff, but we finally settled at Sunday at the Tøyenbadet (which is also an outdoor-pool type thing) (since Frogner was.. well)

we arrive at the place, and ring Elvie, coach her to the place (she hadn't been there before either, like me)
and while I walk to see if they actually do indeed have an outdoor pool
she arrives, and mom and her are walking towards me
(gave me an excellent opportunity to take of my sandals and run speedily trough the grass)

and...

we find out that the outdoorpool closed.. last YEAR ë_ë
(groan)

so then we decide to go to Hvervenbukta instead (wonky Norwegian place names! =D)
once there, we had to wander about immensely before we found a fitting place, (and in the end, the one we found was blah)

bathed muchly with Elvie, and even mom, Elvie meet a nother woman that was also from the Philippines (as she was) but luckily I wasn't left out at all (I was afraid I would be)
Diana was her name, and at one occasion(when Elvie was tired in her feet) I even swam with her (in the large waves, yay!) all the way to the other free floating wooden ramp-dock-pier thing (there is almost always one of those at all norwegian bathing places.. I am so not kidding)
and after playing there a bit (it was CRAZY! X3) swam back

sunned, bathed, sunned played.. wore the other bathing suit, as to get other patterns for tan..

good days good day..

on the homefront, I have tinkered muchly with Photoshop, you shall see the result of that after a little while ::sly smirk::
and to amikat, I'm sorry for not a) responding and b) not commenting on your lj, shall do that tomorrow.. maybe. we shall see
yesterday, (Sunday, I started writhing this and it was still Monday, meep) I was mighty tired and fell asleep, even though I had planned to write this entry then
will feel much more relived now, that its been done..

oh and yes! I went crazy and painted her with this because of that

crazy huh? it cost 196,000nps, crazy now I'm way down to 13,093 NP in my bank account!

WHAHAHABHA ::insane laughter::

::hick:: ok..

shall (if the weather holds up) maybe go swimming with Elvie again on Tuesday...
but really? if the weather doesn't holds up.. I wouldn't mind that awful much.. I am kinda botched and I *do* have internet-lj-school?! things I kinda should maybe do..

if you made it this far, why don't you make a comment? I'll make me ever so happy!, and well, if you against all odds actually *did* miss me that much, I'm sorry for not being there

and now: a poll:

- the poll has been deleted -
because it is soo not relevant anymore.. ;( (so now you have no excuse whatsoever not commenting :p)

many thanks to