him?, he's my best friend, I love him, I love him so much... but not like that, no, I know what everybody says.. and you kinda try to play along/indulge their fantasies/scare the phobes with it.. but
no, just no, there's this block inside of me, it doesn't let me go there, I cannot do it, I think its disgusting, why I find it disgusting? I dunno.. it just is there, poking me, wont let go..
the smile.. pearly bonewhite rows of perfection, tint rose pink lips, narrow, closed, often curled up in a mona lisa smile, but when he *smiles* the smile! the smile! oh god the smile, it brightens up the face the room the world, it makes me tremble, it makes the gugh in my stomach go *gah!* it brimmers with energy.. it shimmers with lechery, evil is he, when he smiles..
the hair... shimmering wavy bliss full in the wind with swirly curls, the beautifullest colour imaginable, so bright! and yet so unnoticeable! pastelly, light silk soft...
like a velvet curtain around his face, like a holyhoop above his head
that hair, ohmygod, I want to fuck his hair, no man, no, no no no, don't go there, don't do this to yourself, don't man, its no use..
that hair, that colour, his hair smells like *him*.. fukit man, that just isn't helping, because, the rest of him, he is.. a man and no, I cant, the thought, oh ehck.. ug disgusting,
shivering of disgust, its not something I'm imagining about my self, its real, I don't want to ::shiver::
no uh.. oh..no man, wtf are you doing to yourself, you're almost creaming your pants by the thought of his hair!! dude, that's sick, you're gonna orgasm thinking about hair, oh how fucking brilliant!
oh.. no.. oh.. WOW uh.. ugh.. yea.. right.. smart ass, your a weirdo you know that? a freaking freak! because of his hair!!! you're, you.. fuck you oz.. -.-x
shining brimming green eyes, oh how I love those eyes, oh how I want those eyes, so green and sparkly, you just want to own them, touch them lick them (yuck eyeball licking XD) need them, so beautiful.. the green in them sparkle, he is so beautiful gosh it takes my breath away.. so beautiful....
if I could just have those eyes I would be happy, but the thought, of screwing a man.. blecgh.. I makes me actually violently ill
why? ask you me? because why.. I DUNNO! why does it feel the way it does to you?
òh, I'm sorry all you pervy yaoi fangirls, but no, I don't want *him*, I want unattached pieces of him, how freaking brilliant is that?!
oh, we kissed once, kissed, me, him, no, not just kissed man, a snogfeast! it lasted for anywhere between 5 seconds and 15 minutes, I dunno XD! a loong tongue-crounchin' smooth-hugging
licking-eachothers-tencils-down-to-the-ground kiss..
and he grazed my ass once, and I freaked
I'm lying with my head on his chest now and his hand is actually resting on my arse!
uh! ::jerkspazzm::
.... he's falling asleep... =)
his hand twitching, causing me to spaz, he moved it, he knows..
damnit, if I could just let go of this block, this fortress, telling me, deep inside my core, that manflesh is.. uh.. wait. breath. ugh.. ew..
I love him..
I wonder if heyou knows, how much I love you...
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