the Aced, the Bad, and the good mum ^^

[nasasie]

today was one of those days...

first.. as you may or may not know I was up all night last night, because I was worrying/insomniantic about the modem hub routher thing...
so of course I was as tired as a deadbeat_on_Friday at school today..

okay, so I really did ACE the test we did before the holidays...
I got a 14,5 of a possible 15, landing me a 6 in character.. (witch is *good* by the way)
However, being as listless as I was, I only went yay!...

now, halfly sleeping in the class room during recess, this girl (who is in another class) is talking to some girl in my class...
just being idle you know.. anyway she positions herself directly behind me!
okay, so anybody who *knows* me (and now, you know it to) knows I hate, hate, HATE that somebody is standing/sitting/fidgeting directly behind my back.. its a hang up I have, I rightfully admit it

now, I, politely tell her this.. she gets WERY offended, gets away from right behind me, all awhile proclaiming rudely that that was 'a sign I wasn't completely grown up' that, I was 'childish'!
now, together with the fact that I'm as tolerant as Collin on valentines day when I've done a all nighter, I think that was a bit much...

however.. I decided to behave like an adult, (instead of having a screaming bitch fit™)
I should, in an resolute manner, tell her that: (and I quote my brain) 'no, truly being childish, is NOT telling you that I don't like people behind me and instead having a screaming bitch fit, or being rude about it and telling someone they 'haven't truly grown up!' (really, her comments sounded much more rude in Norwegian [1])

but ah now.. she's like: no! no! no! I'm talking to her now! completely ignoring me...(and she has this really patronising tone in her voice to)

I got angry...
I got mad
I got furious
I have a screaming bitch fit
I could have hit her.. but I didn't you don't know how hard it was for me not to hit her... when I'm ANGRY.. it isn't fucking fun...


now I got sad
I got terribly terribly sad.. because fuck! I want to stop having these extreme anger explosions! this is when I break stuff.. throw books, cd players, mobilephones, and smash them.

didn't break anything this time thou, with was a personal victory..
but I got sad, because I got mad, and I was exhausted and overtired...
I *do* realise I shouldn't blown up like that, it was totally inappropriate and misplaced of me, and also *proved* how *immature* I was (..grumble.. grumble..stupid..fuck..grumble...)

but it wasn't as if she wasn't somewhat in the wronk either :P
the thing is.. I know I made a mistake.. but I don't think she understands she did ô__ô
Marita (my shibby teacher) is gonna talk to her about it...

(it takes two to tango baby)


now... good mom!

she came to the school from the shop, (she's always near by, shutthefuckup, I have ADHD and Asberger X(
...I had previously asked her in the taxi cab we drive to school in, if she could to buy me something 'punk'

id forgotten that completely.. so, now I'm distraught, and after telling her what truly happened[2] my version, she fishes a paper bag from her sac.. it contains two necklaces and a ring in metal! wow shibby! [insert bounce icon here] yes thank you mom, that *did* cheer me up a 'little' =3

I <3 my mom! sometimes she's just so shibby, and knows the exact things to say ^^


^___^;;;;




[1]'det er et tegn på at du ikke er helt voksen'
[2] I don't think I am totally faultless! I *know* I make mistakes an I'm biased thank youwery muck, *my version* is most likely not The! Truth! but heh.. atleast I'm gonna be open about it an admit it ^^

Comments

[rosethorne.livejournal.com]

*hug* She was a prissy stuck-up bitch that couldn't take being told something that she should have known already. At least your teacher's going to talk about it and your mom is cool.

[rosethorne.livejournal.com]

And to add on to that, I probably would have said something along the lines of, "Excuse me, but you have incredibly bad B.O. and it's blocking my ability to breathe. Would you mind moving?"

But then, I'm incredibly rude and in a semi-bad mood right now. LOL.

[nasasie.livejournal.com]

*lol*
hee ... thanks for the encouraging words and amusement ;)

[rosethorne.livejournal.com]

Glad to be of service. ^__^

Now if LJ would start working so I can get my thoughts out... *sigh*

[shibbypandora.livejournal.com]

*pats on the head* At least everything turned out well ^.^

But i have hissy fits like that as well, lol. I end up smacking people and not realising it afterwards, even when they look murderously at me....

D'oh.

[nasasie.livejournal.com]

hee..
well I smash things sometimes I get the feeling that that's worse than smacking people :0 ::heh::

[amikatana.livejournal.com]

Yeah...and if ya just smash things 'stead of peopole there's no satisfying 'smack!' sound. ^_^

[nasasie.livejournal.com]

lol ;)

Re:

[shibbypandora.livejournal.com]

But the things don't smack you back, lol >.<

D'oh. I guess it depends on what the thing is...?

[nasasie.livejournal.com]

yea.. this one time, I hurled this thingy to the wall..
it came back and hit my arm X(

..

XD