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I should'nt post this..
Today was fucking awesome!!!
we had SUN entire day, hadn't since before school's started
except I woke up by some random evil message from noone I knew™ on my cellphone >_<
felt despicable and unnoticed awhile coming along mom to hospital, only got cool with Pokémon sapphire and beating the trickhouse --- twice
but now people are responding to various greetings and posts, and all is sunshine in the NasNut-world
aahhhh
::breathe::
okay.. I'll spill, I'll tell... what's wrong... I've been feeling.. I dunno, ignored.. by some people, here on lj land.. no it's probably not you.. if your reading it
if your reading it, you no be the ignoring part ^^
except its not really ignoring, but me being of the No Life™ stalkable evil spam poster of doom™ way...
please, If I nag you to come online and talk to me, and you a) cant b) don't have time c) even don't want
tell me, because rejection is better than ignoration
it is, to me, ok?
I am constantly worrying if people find me annoying and or self-absorbed, completely aware that stating this fact, makes people annoying and establishes that I am infact, an attention whore
single child syndrome much, ey?
I am completely aware of the fact that I am no better or worse or unique than the restoring 87,6% people out there
and it won't change, for all the bitching and whining and moaning, I do me
I should be HAPPY damn it, because for the first time, everything is going good, life wise, and socially wise, (internet friends who care and me for them, woot!)
but I'm left feeling.. wanting.. more
to talk to people, to see people..
you.. you see people, when I say I virtually have no friends, I mean I HAVE no friends
not one
not one single one
but the online ones
and they need space, because I'm suffocating some of them, it must be, that's why they don't come running and squeaking and gushing at my every move ;)
but please, PLEASE
just.. if you don't have time or the energy, just TELL me
I can handle a no, really, I need for people to say 'no' to me
its the Asberger/ADHD thing, We Need The Practice™
I need to get in contact with people like me, but there are no people like me, not here
no anime-loving, yaoi addicted, girly-pirates-with-eyelinershadow obsessed, Zelda-game-freak, Pokémon-playing, girlyboy-wannabe, male-brained chikas in the entire area of oslo!
I have however, meet people fitting more into the word of Nspasz online
what to do when you live on a rock eh?
adememdum : why is 'obsessed' synonymed with 'queer' ? WTF??
we had SUN entire day, hadn't since before school's started
except I woke up by some random evil message from noone I knew™ on my cellphone >_<
felt despicable and unnoticed awhile coming along mom to hospital, only got cool with Pokémon sapphire and beating the trickhouse --- twice
but now people are responding to various greetings and posts, and all is sunshine in the NasNut-world
aahhhh
::breathe::
okay.. I'll spill, I'll tell... what's wrong... I've been feeling.. I dunno, ignored.. by some people, here on lj land.. no it's probably not you.. if your reading it
if your reading it, you no be the ignoring part ^^
except its not really ignoring, but me being of the No Life™ stalkable evil spam poster of doom™ way...
please, If I nag you to come online and talk to me, and you a) cant b) don't have time c) even don't want
tell me, because rejection is better than ignoration
it is, to me, ok?
I am constantly worrying if people find me annoying and or self-absorbed, completely aware that stating this fact, makes people annoying and establishes that I am infact, an attention whore
single child syndrome much, ey?
I am completely aware of the fact that I am no better or worse or unique than the restoring 87,6% people out there
and it won't change, for all the bitching and whining and moaning, I do me
I should be HAPPY damn it, because for the first time, everything is going good, life wise, and socially wise, (internet friends who care and me for them, woot!)
but I'm left feeling.. wanting.. more
to talk to people, to see people..
you.. you see people, when I say I virtually have no friends, I mean I HAVE no friends
not one
not one single one
but the online ones
and they need space, because I'm suffocating some of them, it must be, that's why they don't come running and squeaking and gushing at my every move ;)
but please, PLEASE
just.. if you don't have time or the energy, just TELL me
I can handle a no, really, I need for people to say 'no' to me
its the Asberger/ADHD thing, We Need The Practice™
I need to get in contact with people like me, but there are no people like me, not here
no anime-loving, yaoi addicted, girly-pirates-with-eyelinershadow obsessed, Zelda-game-freak, Pokémon-playing, girlyboy-wannabe, male-brained chikas in the entire area of oslo!
I have however, meet people fitting more into the word of N
what to do when you live on a rock eh?
adememdum : why is 'obsessed' synonymed with 'queer' ? WTF??